The turnout for the dry run today was not that bad. Better than last general practice definitely. Though still many people missing on wushu side. Haiz…y everytime also the practices I feel so desperate. Sure, the show is getting better n better with each practice. ‘Cept that we need mannny more practices. But don’t ask me how I am going to make the ppl come down. That’s it. Cannot make them come down. So let it be this way. But the feeling I get is that somehow some ppl really have started to..not like me very much becuz of this ICN thing. Not that I care very much anyway. But it pains to realize that ur doing all this to put a good show and then people looking at you in ways that say ‘who do you think you are’. I guess its like that for everyone who has to lead a team though. N now, I’m thinking if I should go to take charge of the external perf next AY if ever we do go on with the project. Sharon said I could be the programme coordinator apart from the next dance head. And just yesterday I was thinking ya should be ok. But not, I’m seriously thinking of opting out of this. But then things are not that simple. I do want the external perf for dansdemonz cuz ya, its the only way for the group to progress. But I don’t want to be the one in charge. Not me. But who will take charge if I don’t? I could look for a freshie, but then working with wushu wldn’t b that simple. Omg…stop stop. I do tend to think too much sometimes. I better go off.